Or at least, it would seem that way.
Last night, Micah, Zaile and I all had nightmares... or at least dreams vivid enough to wake us up.
At around midnight last night, Zaile woke up, and called me into her room. She said, "I want to make delicious things for you." She makes dinner with me a lot, and I think she just had a dream about making dinner, and when she woke up, she decided she wanted to cook.
Later that night I was woken up by Micah silently standing beside my bed. When I asked him what was wrong, he said he had a dream. I asked him what it was about, and he said, "I don't want to tell you.", and started to cry.
Once I'd comforted him, got him back into bed, and back into bed myself, I woke up at around 6 am in a sweaty panic.
I dreamt someone knocked on my door, and as I opened it, the man pushed his way in, and tackled me in front of my couch, near Zaile. I was screaming for her to run, but she wouldn't budge... she just stood there, at near my feet screaming. (This next part is semi-graphic, just fyi. Skip to the next paragraph if you don't wanna read it.) And while I was trying to get her to run, the man started to push a razor blade into my throat... And you know when you cut through two different textures, like if you accidentally cut through your fingernail, you can feel it.. you can feel your nail, and flesh being cut at the same time, but you can feel the difference between nail and skin. Anyway, it was like that, I could feel the different textures of my skin and esophagus being cut. Not that you could actually feel that if it were happening, but that is how it was in my dream. When I realized he was trying to kill me, I did an arm bar from guard and broke his arm... but he kept coming after me. I ended up getting him in a rear naked choke, but while I was choking him, he sliced up the side of my head and arm with the razor blade he'd been stabbing me in the throat with. I ended up choking him to death by accident. I was in a panic, and he was trying to murder me, so I just kept choking him until my neighbors came bursting though my door a few minutes after all the screaming started.
It was basically just a bunch of my fears rolled into one dream. I am afraid of strangers bursting in my door when I open it. Even though, I realize that almost never happens outside the movies. I'm afraid of said attacker attacking when my children are home. Plus, I worry sometimes about Jiu-jitsu type self defense. Don't get me wrong, I feel 110% safer with my limited knowledge, but I know that a man could easily come after me with a broken arm... I worry that I could be stabbed, or hit while trying to rear naked choke someone, and I worry that I would indeed kill someone if I had to choke them out for dear life. I think with fear, and adrenaline would keep choking, and choking.
It was one of the few times in my life I woke up with my heart pounding covered in sweat from a dream. Boo.
Chad claims to never dream, but he does... he just never remembers. So, his lack of a dream doesn't count against my theory. Lasagna gives you nightmares.
